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Wednesday, May 21, 2014
A letter to my future husband.
Dear future husband,
I wonder how are you doing? Today, on the 20th May 2014, I'm actually alone in a spa resort. This place is filled with friendly employees, and families, or friends who are traveling together. This is actually my first trip alone, and I thought it did be fun. It's not exactly that fun per se, but it is quiet, and comfortable. It is a little too peaceful here. I do feel alone because there are no solo travelers here except for myself. I wonder, where are the other solo travelers are.. Let me share with you my adventures for today.
From the time I have left Tanah Merah Ferry terminal, I know there's no turning back. I had to survive the days on my own, and find out what I'm really seeking for. There were so much uncertainties about the future. I hear ringing bells in my head about the possible decisions that I could have make.
There I was, on the ferry to a short getaway from everything, and everyone. I was afraid of the sea motion. I was afraid of the waves. I was afraid of what I cannot handle. I was afraid of being alone. Yet, at the same time I was excited. I was excited about what this trip may bring. I was excited about the discoveries I may make during this trip. I was afraid of not having anyone to talk to. I was afraid of the nights that I will be alone in the room. Together with all these fears and uncertainties, I departed from SG.
On the ferry, there's an Indian dude who kept looking at me, as though he was hinting that he wants to talk to me. I smiled in return. He then settled down on the seat in front of me. He turned to look at me occasionally, and I stared at him, giving him the look of "yes, how can I help you?" Eventually, he mustered his courage and spoke to me. He asked "how long does it take to reach Bintan?" And I answered him. He then asked "what time is it now?" I answered. He then slowly turned his head around, and with the occasional glances over his shoulders. After we have arrived at our destination, we went on our separate ways. We bumped into each other again, and we exchanged smiles. This time round, we really went on our separate ways.
From the time I arrived at the Bintan Resort Terminal, I was looking forward to another trip like Nirwana Garden's. I was looking forward to that kind of lifestyle, and environment. I felt that, being alone in that kind of environment will do me good. From the time I met my host who picked me up from the ferry terminal, I was really excited about this trip. I was wondering what could possibly be. I was excited about what I can do, and what will come across my mind. I was excited about having my alone time.
After traveling for an hour plus or so, I have finally arrived at my resort. It was very different from what I have expected it to be. It was a small scaled resort, and it was different from Nirwana Garden's. If I didn't remember it wrongly, the prices are about the same, but back then I have decided to be adventurous. I have decided to book this resort instead of a 4star hotel. Frankly speaking, there isn't much things around here. I feel lazy sitting around here. It was pouring when I got here. Then, it stopped. The only perks about this place is that the people are friendly, and it is a quiet place. There aren't too many guests, only a few groups here and there. Sadly, I'm the only solo traveller. Now I'm beginning to wonder, am I being too adventurous or did I just book the wrong resort?
The view here was good though. I get to see the sea, and there is an outdoor jacuzzi here. The insects here are moderate, not too much, I guess, or maybe I just haven't met them yet. Here I am, sitting in the cafe, after finishing my seafood spaghetti.
I really have an affinity with flies. I found one in my spaghetti, and I still continued to finish up my spaghetti because I was too hungry. The fly didn't bother me that much after all. As I'm typing this entry, I'm so concerned about what I should have for dinner, and whether I can open the beer bottles which I have bought from the DFS earlier.
The sea is calm, and the air is still. I'm planning what I should do tomorrow. I'm certain I'm going to catch the sunrise, and I'm certain I will do my massage tomorrow. In addition, I'm certain I will soak myself in the outdoor jacuzzi.
I'm beginning to enjoy the peace, and serenity. Yes, I'm embracing the existence of the insects, I just hope things will turn out better. I may venture out tomorrow to the mall. It depends, but I'm not sure. And the dinner was great. It was filled with seafood. I think I'm gonna get high cholesterol. Do you enjoy seafood as much as I do? Did you travel alone before, and how was it like to travel alone? Do you have any interesting adventures to share with me too? Were you as adventurous, and did you indulge in life as much as I do? YOLO much maybe?
xoxo,
Me
`beautiful delusions_
10:31 PM
