It was a fruitful weekend though. Had fun celebrating birthdays, and yes, I love celebrations. They make people feel happy! =D Okay, or at least, they make me felt happy. HAHAS.
I don't wanna bid my weekends goodbye so quickly! Walao, today is like a typical Sunday. Clean her room, let her out to play. I seriously think that my kitty thinks that I'm her toy. She CHASES me around the house, in attempts to attack me. Can you believe it?! She pounced at me from my bed, to where I was sitting. I literally saw her FLY. She landed softly on my laps and started chewing on my fingers. =.=" Are kitties suppose to behave this way?
And oh, to add on, she was pouncing on me when she sorta missed the landing spot. She nearly fall, but she was just staring at me, expecting me to pull her up. When I did, she bites me again. WTH. At times I think that my princess is a nut brain; and at times I kinda hate her. LMAO.
Right at this point of time, I'm confused. Should I go back to my books, or to work. This sure is contradicting. BLAHS.
`beautiful delusions_
4:51 PM
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Saturday, May 29, 2010
Just shoot if you can't get over it.
You don't have to act all tough and nasty, saying untrue things about me. Just admit it, you're just feeling bitter 'cuz you can't get me. HAA! How funny is it gonna be?! I can't wait to watch you fall, only then you'll know how I felt. BLAHS. Enjoy the short moments of fame, and a lifetime of eyes/rumours revolving around your life. *sings: Oh pa-pa pa-pa-razzi
I like it last night! (: HAPPY B'DAY, HX! (actually its tomorrow, but I shall blog it now). BEST WISHES. HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOUR 21st! =D
Oh, can't you just make me feel so mesmerised by you all again?
`beautiful delusions_
6:24 PM
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Saturday, May 22, 2010
Time flies like some shooting stars.
Yes, I've graduated officially, collected my cert, and I guess this marks the end of my poly life and its time to say hello to the working world. Bro said to me "welcome to the life of zombies." AHAHAS. Apparently, people who are working in an office are pretty much like zombies. They go to work in the mornings, come home in the evenings, eat, bathe, sleep, wake up, and the same routine goes on and on.......! This doesn't sound really welcoming please.
As for some other issues, I've been a good girl, and all. I just wanna be fine. Uhs..
Say, looking back from where I think things have changed for me, it is indeed a long run/time. I have no idea how to go on talking about it, but I suppose things will be good if people just stop trying to mess up my life. My life is by far, really nice and as peaceful as it is recently, and I WANT it to continue. Seriously, don't be such bitches ok? No good for your own karma (:
Everyone's been busy with their own lives, and people just come and go now and then. TSK. It confuses me, like seriously. You see, sometimes people just pop into your life, but with an agenda. I don't like this, and I fucking hate it. I've been trying to lie low as much as possible by not going to the clubs, and not hang out with complicated people, but sometimes, people just like pulling me into that dumbass whirlpool. Well, I'm not one of those recyclable toys whereby you can just use, and pass on to your friends for use. Period.
I'm confused by people's actions and their words. 'Cuz they don't tally. Why hide, why lie, why cover up for yourself? Why can't you be honest to yourself, and to others?
I hope beefy's been good, and so is my godson (:
`beautiful delusions_
10:11 PM
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Friday, May 14, 2010
We play hide-and-seek in the day, and chase by the evening.
I believe what they say about kittens are so true. They're simply so playful, and yes, when they're playful, some damages in the house is done. Rahs. But all is well, as she's quite a dear, apart from the tearing of newspapers, the throwing of tantrums, and prolly, the whiny part. Say, she's already how old ehs? About 1 mth or so? Hmms, i think she's a mixture of many different animals. Hahas. She never fails to make my day la.
Alrighty, time for dinner whilst this little monster continues destroying my nose, my bed, my room. ROARSssssss. P.s she loves to steal my pillow. Asshole. She lies there like the pillow is hers, when its MINE! =.="
`beautiful delusions_
6:44 PM
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tah dah, my very favourite =D Thank you darl' (: loves much.
I'm finally NOT job-less! LOL LOL :P yes, I'm currently employed by DHL, as some Logistics Coordinator (: YAY. I'm happy with the pay, the place (although its quite a walk from the station). And so, I'm gonna make sure I'm staying in this job, for long (:
Tonight my kitty has gone wild. She's like running around like a bunny. No, it ain't any typo, but yes, a BUNNY. She doesn't really run 'cuz she hops around. Geez. She's like 'hopping' around, and jumping on my bed, making herself comfortable. ROARSssss! No good, 'cuz I'm sneezing real badly. Gosh.. Time to chase her out. HEH HEH.
There's always a time to face your fears. And mine begins tomorrow.
Everyone could be hiding, could be lying. Its just what you choose to believe in, and what they choose to tell you..
`beautiful delusions_
9:55 PM
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
One day, I'm gonna be so sick of interviews that I'm gonna just sit in front of this lappy and stone my day away. Damn. "We'll call you again" In my tiny heart "Ta-Ma-De"
Alrighty, gotta go, again. Yawns. Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me having no experience in the logistics field?! It's not my fault that my attachment is not related. Hellooooo?! WTF.
`beautiful delusions_
3:31 PM
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Monday, May 10, 2010
Going for too many interviews make me feel so constipated. Yes, CONSTIPATED. 'cuz it was like gritting my teeth, going against the dumb weather, and then smile =D Yes, I think my face is like.. NUMBED. Damn. Alright, at least the interviewers are nice people, so I was still alright with it =D
And I think I'm having some sort of difficulty with anger management. Yes, I've morphed into this stupid monster who pinches, who screams, who abuses her partner. LMAO. And I think it has got to do with stress management.
You see, being jobless=more interviews=sending more resumes=endless remixes from empress=no income=more money spent=more free house music=bad temper=sleepless nights=poor anger management=poor stress management=abusive girlfriend=more arguments=more displeasure=random mood swings=crazy. Yes, see how fucking long this list is?! Oh my gosh, I think my brain is literally exploding. LMAO.
And no, I'm not crazy, like mentally ill. The next person who's gonna say that I'm mentally insane shall get it from me. I shall slap the fella silly and show him/her what is it like to be really insane. DAMN. Arghs! I'm like.. I don't know! I think I'm like some time bomb. Ready to go "chi-ga-ba-boom" really soon. And I mean it.
And I still don't feel comfortable when people probe into my family's stuffs. And I don't like it. As a matter of fact, I hate it. I seriously hate it, and I think I wanna cry 'cuz I nearly did, in front of that lady. Then again, I like youtube. They have nice vids. They make me happy =B
`beautiful delusions_
11:14 PM
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Friday, May 7, 2010
Hmms, I was typing one big chunk here but I backspaced every single thing. Say, let's just put it this way- I have no idea what to blog about anymore. Hmms.. Its Friday! TGIF. Interview on Monday, 10am. Seriously, I need to organize my timing well (:
Toodles, and till then.
Damn it, where's my book?! ROARRrrrrrrrrs! Please kindly return me MY book. Thank you very much.
Yes, I've been watching this for days, and days. LOL. This is the first program that I will watch to start my day. HAHAHAHAS. Who says that I'm too old for cartoons?! I shall slap that person silly. Cartoons are not only for kids ok. In fact, cartoons make my day. HAHAHAS =X
Oh boy oh boy, I'm still, jobless. LOL. Mum's been nagging, and I really did try all that I could. LOL. Just that luck ain't on my side. Gee. And I shall upload photos soon, but I'm really lazy, and sleepy. Been playing hide & seek with that little girl. She enjoys hiding, and waits for me to search for her, high & low, low & high, everywhere around the house. *yawns*
`beautiful delusions_
2:34 PM
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Sunday, May 2, 2010
Reflective entry (contents are based on personal opinions, personal thoughts, and everything personal. if you're offended by any chance, I'm NOT sorry at all. 'cuz this is MY fucking blog, and you have a choice of NOT reading it. TYVM)
Just a random post/random update. Haven't been online for quite awhile, but I'm not missing in action. I'm still very much alive and kicking around. I've been rather busy with the princess lately, and I sleep alot, alot. Imagine, you have to wake up at around 9am, to clear the princess's shit, and at times, wash the toilet ('cuz she shit on the floor), feed her, before you can head back to bed. This is super taxing.
Alright, enough of my temperamental princess. There's another prince on his way! Yes, I'm like some pet mama already. However, this prince is gonna be a puppy =\ I have no idea how my mum is gonna handle the smell! And I have no idea how to handle the two darlings, together =S I shall see to it.
Say, life's been pretty much the same. Things are getting better, and things are swaying their way back on tracks. This is helluva good, like seriously. Things are better at home, and yes, I'm glad that things are changing for the better, at home, within the families =D Trust me, when things start to change for the better at home, that's when you'll think and believe that other things are turning for the better too. Uhs...!
To add on, I've been thinking quite abit during this period of time. Uhs, things have changed alot for me, ever since the beginning of 2010, till now. Yes, it was pretty much like I was sucked into some tornado, and I have no total control of my life; I have no clear vision of what my life had became back then. Ok, to be it more directly, I was really sheltered for all my life, until I decided to you know, break-free. Tsk, I won't say that its a mistake, but its more of like a chance for me to know more about the nature of beings. I seriously think I'm too kind-hearted at times. HAHAHAHAS! Ok, stop laughing. LOL. Whatever, things are turning out better for me, I'm happy! =D
Nonetheless, I'm glad to have great friends around, and people who love me. Thank you, you folks, and pals. ME LOVES.
Here I am, back in your embrace. Its the only place where I know, things will always turn out just fine. I'm glad, to be back in this cozy abode (: Oh, our bittersweet world.
`beautiful delusions_
11:14 PM
JOANNE __;
leo/horse `
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family `
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[wish] *
# family happy n peaceful n healthy (:
# everyone around me to be happy
