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Sunday, September 29, 2013

It has been awhile since I blogged online or mention anything close to the heart online. Many times I'm so tempted to do that. Many times I want to blog about something, blog about something close to my heart, blog about something that people don't know how I'm feeling. Yet, I didn't. 

 All these while, I'm still the same. The only difference is that I'm embarking on my career, and I have been spending more time to enrich myself. I have been spending more time to make myself feel confident about myself.. 

 Yesterday, someone asked "did you ever have that special one in your life?" It's like wow, whenever someone asks me that question, all the memories will fill my brain, and images of you will just naturally flow into pictures. It was like within a split second, the good memories, and bad filled my head. My heart was thumping, and it was like an adrenaline rush. I could feel the rush of my blood through my vessels to my head, and heart. Then I felt an ache after the slide show of good moments are over. 

 "Yes, I used to have that special one in my life." There was a long pause, and the heart whispered "but things have changed. The special one is no longer mine." At that moment, I felt a little upset, but then happiness slowly fill the emptiness. It's because my special one is now happy, and is someone else's special one. I know you are now happy, and that matters a lot, to me. You have been so dear to my heart and soul, that your happiness means a great deal to them :) 

 No one has taught me so much about life, and about being honest about my emotions. Nobody has made me feel so safe like how you did. Yes, sadly, nobody. That's the annoying part too. Lol. It's like after all these years, nobody has replace you, and not even close. Nobody has ever made me feel the same way like how I did. Yet, it's good. It has taught me how to love myself more even if others doesn't love me as much as you do. It has taught me how to protect myself even more because nobody is gonna shelter me as much like how you did. 

 Naturally, the relationship has also taught me how to love others better. When you have learnt to love yourself more, you will naturally know how to love others.. 

And now, I wanna wish you happiness too. I want you to be happy, because it's what matters to me too. Thank you, for letting yourself, and me go. Thank you, my previous special one. 

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