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Thursday, October 20, 2011

Well oh well, at this hour, I'm supposed to be studying for my upcoming papers, which will be on this Sunday. Although it's an open-book examination, it certainly did add on a certain of stress into me.

I've been to interviews recently, looking for a part time job. Well, expenses are getting higher, and in fact, I think they're higher when I'm attached (or sort of). I've no idea where I'm spending my money. I guess it's the occasional pampering which I'll tend to shower upon myself whenever there're a few extra dollars. There, it resulted in lesser savings. Well, I don't know man.

Tonight, I'm feeling a little stressed, over nothing. Probably it's the same kinda emptiness that envelops me, and filling my colourful night with darkness. I guess the time of the month is coming. I just don't like this kinda emptiness, together with a tinge of security. This is the time whereby I dislike being a girl. Yes, I just said that, disregarding all the other privileges that I've for being a girl (like I'm allowed to throw tantrums, step on people and apologize with my brightest smile, etc). However, at times I dislike being me. You see, I'm always so insecure, and so paranoid over little things.. There're many things which I do not understand, about how guys do their things, and stuffs. When I do not understand, I feel insecure. I get paranoid when I find out things which does not tally with whatever info I've received.

I'm feeling outta sorts tonight, and at this very moment. I think I need to rant, over a shot.

p.s I love neighbour for being one of the few men who understand me (:
p.p.s I still think it's the time of the month that's coming. Thus my utmost mood-swings and random rants.
p.p.p.s I still enjoy being a girl though (so many privileges come with it. LOL.)

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