Friday, September 23, 2011
Well, second last night in Phuket. This is my second time here, but this time round, everything is so different!
Well, on the first night, I went to the ah-gogo bars. Trust me, I was stunned, amazed, and amused! Well, the ping-pong, the flower garland, the dart-shooting, the you know, fishes and bird coming out from the pussy?! It was like WOW-ed. Then there we went, to another ah-gogo bar, with real titties and pussies flashing at you like it's totally normal there! Surprising, and yeah, it was another WOW.
And so, on the second night, the girls decided to be a little more adventurous. We went to the.. Lady-boys bar! Well, they certainly have the figures, and yes, the entertainment level was kinda high especially when you see them flashing their undies at you to prove that they've pussies. Imagine them doing that on a little podium, and each podiums are like a few tables away. You just have to keep turning your heads to check out the different ladies who'll get on and off the podium. LOL. Well, they only attack guys, and yeah, the experience wasn't as terrifying as I thought it might be (:
On the same night, we went to some bar, with bar-top dancing. Well, that was one helluva bar that got us. We spent a thousand or 2 in that bar alone. How crazy can that be?! I mean, its like woah woah woah! We had shots, after shots, and drinks, after drinks. Well, the people there are friendly, and engage you in their activities. I guess the motto of the club is "Get our customers drunk, and make them happy." Indeed, we were all happy that night....
And so last night, we went to the ah-gogo bar again, sat for awhile, and we back to the bar from second night's. We were there, drinking, chatting, and playing as usual. Guess how much did we spend? 5000+ bhat! Ridiculous please... Well, I bet they were happy last night. LOL.
So far, that's about it. Tonight, is another night. Let's see, where will our guts bring us to tonight.. We shall see, and till then! :D
`beautiful delusions_
10:49 PM
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Thursday, September 15, 2011
Over at 4am.
Right now, I'm supposed to be asleep, supposed to be lying on my bed like some dead log. Yet, I'm not. Here I'm, typing away on my laptop discreetly..
I was at the scene, and was probably shaking shake shake. I drank till I felt so bloated and disgusted by the whiff of smell of alcohol. Amazingly I was sober, and I was staring hard at people who stared at me. Tonight is the night that I've to vehemently admit that age is my nemesis. I'm no longer part of the catch; I'm no longer the cup of tea of the crowd. I've lost my position of the dancing diva, I've lost my position, in the limelight. This is nothing biggie to mourn about, as a matter of factly. I know, I'll eventually age, and that I'll not be part of the trendies. All these just didn't dawn on me. It makes me feel insecure, being me.
This is probably when I feel insecure about losing people who loves me. I'm afraid of losing out, and that they might stop loving me all because my market value is no longer as high. I suppose this is when insecurities started to envelop me. *Shrugs* Am I losing all my charisma just because I'm aging? This is one helluva frightening thought. Will I start losing the people around me...?
Back to the drinking part, I'm proud of myself that I was probably the most sober one there. Disadvantage : You get elbowed, stepped on, and chinned by the high/drunk people with big actions. It's annoying because I end up with bruises even though I wasn't swaying around?! WTF. Yes, I can't go around scolding them 'cuz this is how it is, plus they weren't sober enough to think logically. So yeah, all I can do was "FML."
In any case, some songs that made me wanna cry without fail: Boomerang, and DJ got us fallin' in love again. Damn, I still have the soft spots for these songs. Not because I'm still living in the past, but 'cuz there wasn't any closure. Without closure, a part of me will tend to linger in the past (to and fro). I'll tend to wonder, but nothing more. Uh wells..... Forget it, now I'm swaying. LMAO. I'm too sleepy. Till then, nights.
Don't stop loving me b'cuz nobody wants me, alright? Don't stop cherishing me b'cuz I'm unwanted by others, alright?
`beautiful delusions_
4:05 AM
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Tuesday, September 13, 2011
The apology, substituted with macaroons.
I guess that is how it's like in a relationship. The relationship gets older as time slips away with every passing second. As the relationship matures, we tend to fumble onto more unhappiness/dissatisfaction. We get more impatient with one another along the way I suppose.
When we slowly became a part of each others' lives, we get used to having each other around. I suppose this bonding period will eventually result in "taking one another for granted". I've been through these familiar phases, and so, I ought to be pretty much immune to them. However, that's not the case. Instead, I became really paranoid. I flare at the slightest thing, scolding the poor boy till he became really speechless. I must say, when I flare, I can turn the illogical into facts, and make you believe in them.
In any case, boy was really nice. He got me some sweet treats to make it up to his negligence. Yes, weeks ago, he was complaining that I didn't have time for him. Yet, weeks later, he began neglecting meeeeeeeee! And so, to make it to me, he got me these little sweet treats! :D
He got the safest combi - chocolate & strawberry! (:
Tasty-looking? Well, they sure are! :D I love these little macaroons! They're really delicious. Yummyyyyyy...! :D
Alright, till I'm in the mood to blog more then. Pen's out (no, not pant's out .__.)!
`beautiful delusions_
10:45 PM
