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The Melodies.

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Monday, August 23, 2010

That very night.

You sent a long text, I was struggling to read it. My spare phone got cranky, so I couldn't read finish. The next morning, it wasn't in my inbox. I guess, it wasn't meant to be.

And no, its not what you people think. If I were to settle down, I will make the next one last, till I die.

`beautiful delusions_
10:37 PM


<body>
Saturday, August 21, 2010

Close to half a year.

After weeks and weeks of clubbing, I've finally decided to slow down everything. Yes, birthday was awesome. Thanks everyone who looked after me (:

Say, it's been so long, prolly by now, you've moved on too. I know, I should, and I will. He asked me something today, and I didn't answer. He's so much like you. The way you both will make me laugh, make me feel kinda secure. He's nice to me, and he was nice, looking after me that night. He's a gentleman, like you, will never eat my tofu (: Hahas. Of course, he's more guai than you, but he's also younger than you. In fact, younger than us both. However, he's also pretty much like you - enjoys building castles in the air, with me. I'm not sure how long this will go on, but for now, I'm still leaving it as it is. At times, it's really painful to face him, and to have a shadow of you lingering.. Uh well, I'm taking things slower now, how about you?

I said, someday when you mean nothing to me, I will cover up the ink. I believe I'll never do that, and I've strong faith in my own believe.

`beautiful delusions_
2:22 PM


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Sunday, August 15, 2010



I've just passed my teen years. But it was all good, the party, the people, yes, most importantly, the people. I have no idea what to say, but thanks mates, for celebrating with me. Thanks Cas bro, and Eef for coming down to have a mini celebration with me 'cuz I was sick.

I'm feeling all the love in the world, even without your presence.. I've indeed, grown up, by abit. I no longer cry whenever I receive your text. Anyway, thank you, for the wonderful memories that we once had.. Take care.

Thank you, my dear friends, for making things happen for me :D what am I to do without you all! LOVES.

p.s the previous entry is not emo pls =.=" I typed it with a heavy heart, but I wasn't emo. Cheerios.

`beautiful delusions_
9:28 PM


<body>
Saturday, August 14, 2010

Time is ticking by, and I'm cherishing the last moments of my teen years while they still last.

And yes, I'm being forced to grow up, along with time. As much as I wanna be a little girl all my life, I know this can never be true. All the fairytales, all the myths, all the legends, they're hardly true. But I won't deny the fact that it'd make children's lives more, erms, innocent and worth the time dreaming of it. If I were to have a kid, I'll still tell him/her fairytales, making him/her happy, while they can still enjoy the luxury of dreaming/fantasizing..

Some day, just some day, I'm gonna publish a book about my life story, about how I manage to grow up, about how I manage to be me. Just some day, I'll fill in all the missing pages, all the suspense, and all the truth about my life..

Looking back on those years, I miss me.
I miss almost everything about me.
Yet I detest whatever that had happened around me; to me..
Nonetheless, I still miss me,
someone who stood up for herself.
Someone who was so firm on her stand.
Someone who was just much stronger, and much more innocent.
Yes, I miss the old innocence in me,
and I miss the will that I used to have..
Right now, all I depend on, is just Fluoxetine & Hydroxyzine to make me normal ; to make me lead a normal life; to make me be me.....

`beautiful delusions_
12:16 PM


<body>
Friday, August 13, 2010

At this rate, I have no idea how long are they gonna use me.

MC for a few days in a month, its bad. Its like leaving a bad record on your performance sheet. It isn't what I want, but I just can't help it. It's not like I want it this way. Nonetheless, it sucks, and yes, it sucks to the core. Its like leaving bad impression, and I just have to tell myself "9 more months to go."

Say, I have no idea how to pass on about this year, but I'm not gonna let it pass like any other years. Yes, this year I'm single, but so what?! No big fuck, I'm still gonna make it a blast! Hur hur. Yes, a blast, even when I'm down with fever! LOL.

Damn, the medicine is kicking in. Nighty.

`beautiful delusions_
3:10 PM


<body>
Saturday, August 7, 2010

I tio scammed by Alisan man.

My dad shouted "HOY! Why are you here?!" He told my mom, and my mom told him that he was dreaming! Next, my mom came, and she went "AH!!! Why're you here (in chi)" 2 screams/shouts in the morning, and so I knew I had to explain myself...

Apparently, the guy is a bogus, and prolly so is his shop. Yes, he took many people's money and left the shop, BUT, his shop is opened, as though someone is going back to tend the shop. End up, hella no. 4 police cars, 7 policemen, 1 policewoman.. ALL OF US GOT SCAMMED. TMD. -.-"

Ok, don't ask me if I'm in SG/M'sia, or if I'm enjoying myself. Hella, I'm gonna enjoy myself tonight, IN SG. TMD. @#$%^&*

`beautiful delusions_
1:12 PM


<body>
Thursday, August 5, 2010

I'll be away this weekend, so goodbye world.
I still think about things, about you.
Gonna party the shit outta my guts this weekend!
I never know that it'd hurt so much.
I haven't pack my bag though, kinda idiotic. Shall do it tomorrow night when I'm home. HEHS.
On second issue: you're the first who made me feel that your kiss is so ever gentle.
OMG, I still don't know what to bring, what to wear. WTH. =.=" Ok, nights.

`beautiful delusions_
10:28 PM


<body>
Monday, August 2, 2010

Let's see, 4 more days! Let's go and DDD.

Work's fine, and I've finally found out what I really want in my life! My goals, my ambitions. LOL! WTF, but YES! Okays, I shall go bathe and carry on dreaming...!

Leos are egoistic creatures - they don't make the first moves, but they hunt for their prey..

`beautiful delusions_
10:15 PM


<body>
Sunday, August 1, 2010

Weekends were great,even without alcohol.
No, I will never allow myself to be a fool again.
I can't wait to hit the highlands with the babes!
Prolly I feel this way is 'cuz its been really long since someone held me close to keep me warm and shelter me from the rain..
SEXCITED. BOO! Army boys can't spend my b'day with me! They better make it up to me. READ ME, ARMY BOYS?!
It felt good, just for that very night. But now its to let it pass, and move on, and not feel bad.

`beautiful delusions_
11:00 PM


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