Exposing the horrible side of human beings.

I stood there, hiding from her view. My heart was racing, and my legs turned jelly. It was my first time doing this, and I was fucking afraid. I grabbed on to sugar, asking her if I was doing the right thing. There were 2 voices fighting within me : the compassionate one, and the firm-strong one.

She called again, and I was hesitating as to answer her call, or not. I kept delaying the meeting time and I was feeling guilty. Yes, guilt was crawling its way all over me. I could feel my heart thumping as I was leaning over to sugar's.

Without much pondering, I walked over to her. I was greeted with a smile that was filled with excitement. Within seconds, I ruined that smile with an opening sentence of "Oh, so you know my friend, X? I know her, and we're kinda close. I know what you're up to." Her smile changed to a look of shock. The next thing I know, she was patting my arm, and apologizing, admitting to her mistakes.

We continued the conversation with me talking most of the time, and her, replying in silence. We parted not long after, and her eyes were teary. She looked real pissed. As soon as her back turned on me, I was feeling all guilty, all over again. I kept asking sugar if I was doing the right thing by fooling her, and exposing her cunning trick. Sugar kept assuring me that what I did was right. I shouldn't let her get away so easily. She's just flirting around, and trying to see who she can get.

Oh wells, many thoughts were flooding my mind after the entire thing. I was thinking, is she even wrong to flirt with people who're not attach? "No" was the answer. Yet, it was wrong of her to flirt with people, and getting them to be serious about her, and to be her gf, when she doesn't even mean it. *Shrugs*

Human beings are the smartest, but are the most complex living creatures as well. They lie, they cheat, they hide, they hurt each other. They can do almost anything or everything to achieve their goals. And I'm a human too, but I can never understand why do they do such things? Are they so overwhelmed by their goals that they're void of emotions? In any case, I've learned, to be stronger, else you'll be devoured by the evil in this world. I've learnt my lessons the hard way, during this holidays..

"You're heaven sent."

`beautiful delusions_
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