Exams coming, and I so have to study and work. How tiring can this be? O.o" Oh wells, been trying to study but to no avail and exam is on Monday! This is so killing me! :(
Anyways, head to town for work yesterday and I saw one of my long ago friend? LOL. It was such a coincidence as we bumped into each other TWICE. Even sugar was commenting that it was indeed a real coincidence. LOL. Uh wells.. Tired. Blog again, soon, with real photos. 'cuz I need to study now, so I can go lou hei tonight (:
I totally hate such dreams. And it was one of the worst. Tears flowing down my cheeks,wetting my lips and pillow.. Woke to realise it was only a dream. It is indeed a relieve, as it is only a dream, another nightmare.. I never thought my heart would hurt so much when its merely a dream.. The ache stayed for quite awhile till I manage to calm myself down. Felt worried and depress at that point of time. It was indeed such a great pain to ever lose him.. I pray that day will never arrive, not so soon, at least..
You have taught me how to love myself. You taught me how to not deny myself of anything or any rights. You're more than just a partner. You're also a friend, a confidante. You're someone who made me accept myself for who I am. You taught me how to embrace myself, not having to change myself drastically, for no particular reason. You taught me that its alright to just love with no qualms. My sugar love, you taught me one of the most important lesson in my life.. There is no need to hide. There is no need to prove. It all just happens so naturally, and so truthfully.. You had just picked up an old rugged doll not too long ago. And now that rugged doll is a whole new person. She isn't like any other doll or puppet, anymore.. Holding on to you isn't just because of a moment of weakness. It all roots down to love, itself. (:
`beautiful delusions_
3:52 PM
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Photos up soon. I'm so gonna upload pictures of my favourite nephew (my cousin's son, actually)! hahahas.
Gotta go school soon :( Toodles! My sugar is sleeping like a PIG. WAHAHAHAS.
`beautiful delusions_
12:18 PM
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
HUAT EHS!! EVERYONE, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! =DD May everyone be bless with good health and wealth! May peace & harmony be with all! =DD LOVES & HUGS! =D
Thanks my dear ones. I know, I'll be happier this way. Thanks for being by me, through everything. And now, I've found my happiness, finally (: This is a whole new start, a whole new life.
My aunt told me, it's alright even if one day you find out that one person has stopped loving you. 'cuz then, you'll realise how many more people are loving you, still. And with that, I have seen it, and felt it. I know, I'm blessed with so many people loving me.
I know you're willing to be a fool for me. And love, is just another riddle.
`beautiful delusions_
12:15 PM
<body> CNY shopping rush.
AHHHHHHHH....! The clothes which I ordered online, will be late! As in it will NOT arrive before CNY. *Screams* I'm just so screwed. And now, I so need to go on some rushy-hectic shopping spree during the weekends or something! I so need to get at least ONE top, and a nice pair of shoes. LOL. Alright, this weekend/Friday, I'm so gonna shop for my stuffs. I so have to! *Screams and runs around* *pulls hair* I think my mom is so gonna scold me upside down for ordering clothes online, AGAIN. -laughs- Right, I so need to get new clothes AND shoes.
I will upload photos soon. As usual, I'm just darn lazy. zzzzz. HAHAHAAHAS.
And yes, you never fail to make me laugh crazily (:
`beautiful delusions_
10:33 AM
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
Proper post with PICT-CHAS (: So yesterday :17th Jan 2009, Saturday. Had my shopping trip at Raffles City in the late afternoon. Met up with Pat and Emerson before I go shop. So yeaps, we kinda catch up a little here and there, and both April-June and Sugar came to find us shortly after. After I spent about an hour plus on shopping and making my legs ache, we went to Marina square to meet Miss Reine luhs. Uhs, bought tickets for "The Haunting". Initially, ALL of them simply refused to tell me what movie we were gonna watch. Reason? To prevent me from making any objections till the tickets are purchased. What the hell. LOL.
Uhs, I'd rate this movie 3 stars. It was kinda ok, as in the story line. It was filmed in such a way that there's a little bit of suspense and twist here and there. The story line is so not scary at all, EXCEPT the sound effects and of course, the occasionally "pop-out" visual effects. Sugar had a high time watching me jump up from my seat now and then. How nice, NOT. *laughs*
In the midst of getting scared now and then, I was enjoying myself and venting my fears by kicking this 2 fellas' chairs. They were sitting in front of me and they were talking, and laughing DARN LOUDLY. Initially I hushed them but to no avail, which I had no choice but to turn to the last resort (laughs our loud)- kick their chairs. LOL. There was once I kicked so hard, one of them turned back. LOL. Then sugar helped by asking them to keep quiet. lols! Uhs, and they're being nice too, 'cuz at least, they kept quiet after that (:
After movie, we went to Changing Appetites. Wheee.. Had my favourite mud-pie! *Flies to the moon* This is Miss Reine's Volcano something. lols. Sugar's Mocha & Miss Reine's fingers. LOL.
My favourite-Oreo something Mud-pie!! & of course, that's Miss Reine's fingers, AGAIN. lols! After the sweet delicacies, we chilled outside Marina square for awhile before heading home (: It was a fun-filled day, with laughter and warmth (: TGIF: 16th Jan 2009, Friday Had my MAF test and trust me, I was so being killed by the paper. It was a killer for many as the questions were tricky and tough. Uh well, it's over! Wells, went to Century square with a few of my mates, TO SHOOT ZOMBIES (: So darn tiring. It was fun luhs. Wheee.. Photos after the exhausting session. *ahems* I'm referring to the arcade-ing session :P
So ever willing to be your little star. Though I'm not as bright, but I'm willing to shine, for you (:
`beautiful delusions_
4:08 PM
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Together we shall build castles in the air,
making dreams come true (:
my latest form of addiction-you.
took me quite awhile to realise,
took me quite awhile to face it.
took me quite awhile to say it.
my sugary-adrenaline rush (:
`beautiful delusions_
3:01 PM
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
Choices.
In life, we all have choices. Uhs, random. You see, my darling Edeson has been watching this documentary about "the end of the world" which is in year 2012 (this is what the scientists predicted). And so, I told Ed about the kinda life we all might wanna live before the world ends.. So you see, choices came into the picture! Uhs..
Anyways, I shall update again tomorrow. LOL. Kinda tired. zzz..
Adrenaline rush. still, i prefer chocolates. Yes, at least I dont smell bad from eating chocolates! I have a weird sugar, who makes weirder decisions for me. Choices, again. LOL.
MY AUNT's BACK! I SO CAN'T WAIT. NEXT TUESDAY! Wheeee! *hops and skips around*
`beautiful delusions_
10:20 PM
<body> PHOTOS, finally.. 12th Jan 2009 This is what happened during MAF lecture. Uhs, the chocolates which leads to random addictive high-ness! Uhs, the book, AND the chocolates. WOOTS. Vanny and me, during our communication skills meeting! Nothing to do ma..
10th Jan 2009
Here are the few photos. The rest are in my facebook. LOL. Took these shots at Swensens, at around 10plus at night. Brrr.. It's cold :P
The rest of the clique went to the washroom. LOL. So I suggested photos. WAHAHAS.
Photos from last week
Some random shots. Bought this from the pasa malam from tamp. LOL.
During Materials Management, I was soo bored. lols. (Thursday. 8th Jan 2009)
On Wednesday, 7th Jan 2009. After music lecture
Nice sky.. wheee..
During our music lecture...
Saturday, 3rd Jan 2009.
Had project meeting at Parkway parade. Voila, photos.
Had "tea-break" at the library's cafe.
In the library...
I thought this is kinda interesting, so I took a photo of it. It's at Cineleisure's. LOL.
Special thanks to Casper bro.
Uhs, she got this pair of bears for me. So sweet! *fetish kicks in* I LOVE TO PLAY WITH THE BEARS' FEET. lols.
I have not displayed such a vulnerable side of me, to anyone, for ages. You have something that makes me bare my heart to you, telling you things and even showing you the weakest side of me. I have said my piece, and i'm really touched. Thanks being my firm pillar of support, all these while (: Thanks for giving so much, unconditionally..
Its your shoulders which I wanna lie on.
Its your back which I wanna be on (:
I like to be piggy-backed 'cuz it makes me feels like I can rely on the person, totally. And that the person will hold on to me, not letting me fall. *smiles sheepishly* Like you said, I'm like a little girl. I so need to be pampered, love, showered with lotsa chocolates and candies to feed my sweet tooth, need to be led, need to be taken care of at all times, and I so love to whine and give the "oh-so-innocent puppy eyes" when I want a favour or when I want something. Uh wells, I know I can be a little girl and be myself, when I'm with you.
`beautiful delusions_
6:35 PM
<body> It's TUESDAY.
So, I ate my first chocolate of the day-milk chocolate once the clock struck 12. WOOTS. I'm a good girl, I didn't eat anymore chocolates on Monday, whereas its Tuesday today. And I'm going to bed, good night (:
`beautiful delusions_
12:13 AM
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Monday, January 12, 2009
LOOOONNNNGGGG Monday. I was waiting at the post office since 10am till 11am?! It was darn long la, the queue. I'm like sooo tired, then I had project meeting and a lecture. Uhs, so long day! :P
Chocolates can make one high, literally. Can keep giggling till dinner time, and this shows how powerful chocolates are. Especially when you have 1 packet of milk chocolate M&Ms, a little of peanut M&Ms, and one kit-kat chunky bar. Total high-ness (:
I will post photos soon. most probably by tomorrow, I promise (: And I'm so addicted to chocolates. Guess what? I think they're better than sex. LOL. And better than kisses, especially when the chocolate melts in your mouth, wrapping your tongue with the warm cocoa, filling your mouth with the aromatic smell.. *Slurps*
Rest assured, you've unique taste (: Not everyone share the same taste as you! It doesn't bother me, 'cuz its good that they know! Uhs at least they know its mutual kind of feelings, between us (:
Random-ness strikes together with blur-ness and clumsy-ness. How cool is that? Uhs, anyways, I went to Mustafa and then cabbed to Arab street. Finally, I bought what I wanted. HOHOHO. Yes, went to these 2 places to help my dad buy his sarongs. LOL. Its like kinda difficult to find ehs? Uhs, Sakae-d after all that walking and a bad lunch at one of the streets. Yes, the rojak has HAIR. what the fuck. Uhs, Sakae was alright. Kinda bloated and chatted throughout the entire session. So talkative huhs? lols.
Enjoyable day, basically (: Shocked but a tinge of warmth filled my soul (:
Just what am I searching for? the right and clear definition? I have, not a clue. Except that, some thing's missing. Something which i cant put in words. I don't wanna love you for the things you have done. I wanna love you for no reasons, at all. I wanna love you for you, just like how you love me, for me (:
You didn't lose me. I merely drown my thoughts along with the sound of water.. Then, I lost myself. However, I found myself back in no time. Just like how you always find your way to my thoughts, my world (:
`beautiful delusions_
11:20 PM
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
When random-ness strikes I took photos whilst I was in the LT, and was so supposedly to study! LOL. Photos up soon aye. LOL. Uh wells, its just nothing new, isn't it?
Anyway, I have received my bill and my mom got one of the biggest shock in her life. Guess what? for 2 months, my bill shot right up high close to $200. LOL.
In any case, I'll be really blur these few days 'cuz I'm not exactly myself. SO, if you happen to talk to me and I'm spacing out, or if I forget things, please forgive me. LOL. I'm just saying this in advance :P
Oh sugar, I will help to pray for your mama. meanwhile, please take good care of yourself.
the kind of love, that has no boundaries. i know, you have no expectations from me. 'cuz you love me, for me. and I'm so ever glad and touched. yes, you're appreciated (: just wanna let you know, whatever it is, I'll always be here, till the day you make me leave (:
`beautiful delusions_
11:05 PM
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Chopped, snipped, stunned.
You read it. I chopped my hair, uhs, really short and weird =\ However, Alan did ask me to go for soft re-bonding once my this hair becomes longer. Uh wells, seriously, its just weird. Yes, my hairstyle is as random as me. Shall post photos up soon and shock everyone. LOL.
You dont have to say a word. I know how you're feeling. Once loved, then it stops, then its over. You once told me yourself, "even if I have the chance to turn back time and make things go back to past like it used to be, I won't. 'cuz i'm contented with the present." And I can tell you, with that, I trust you. I won't question why. I won't feel insecure. Like I mentioned, you have given me the sense of security which I longed for. And that, is ever enough (: Sugar, you don't have to explain. 'cuz I can feel you and your emotions (: And it's all enough.. Even if all has to stop now, I won't be upset. At least, I know, I do mean something special to you, once.
`beautiful delusions_
9:07 PM
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Monday, January 5, 2009
Ponyo-ed!
So cute la,the goldfish. Also not forgetting the love the guy has for his fish. So sweet la. The show is kinda slow though. I nearly dozed off in the midst of it and the beginning. Uh wells, I suppose i was expecting more? 'Cuz I used "Spirited Away" as the benchmark ma. LOL. still, worth the watch la (:
Anyways, dinnered and pool-ed before movie. Yes, POOL la. I seriously have no idea how to play la. And some thanks, but no thanks to my 2 shifus lo. Kept "putting water" (pang zhui-let me win on purpose). Still, it was kinda fun apart from the embarrassing moments =.="
Alrighty, i'm going to eat. Spent my morning on projects. zzzz. Then guess what? Today's the deadline. HAHAHAHAS. So last minute, I know. Damn tired. My eyes just refuse to open wide. Uhs, so imagine me with tiny eyes k? ((:
I never fail to feel so safe with you around. I never fail to feel your love. (: my sugary addiction.
`beautiful delusions_
11:01 AM
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Sunday, January 4, 2009
Trapped, literally.
Ate, showered, changed, dried my hair, packed bag. All ready to go until... I realised that i couldn't find my keys. HEHS?! =.=" sorry mates. I will do the compiling. Meanwhile, I'm here, stoning... all ready to doze off. LOL. oh my, i'm really tired.. Ponyo, wait for meeeeeee!!! I'm cominggggggg.... random.
i like the way you call me baby (: if that's the case, I'm your baby lioness. RAHS (:
I seriously need to stay away from alcohols and clubs, for a few months, at least? LOL. its all draining me out. I need to cast aside those playful and sinful thoughts and settle down, to study! (: hohoho.
`beautiful delusions_
3:30 PM
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
WOW.
Today, i went to parkway parade for some project and then, i had a meet up with one of my friends. uhs, yeahs. drove to town to meet bro and friend. chatted about business. omg. seriously, his seminar cost $4000 for just 3 days! WHAT THE HELL. anyways, watched Transporter 3. AWESOME. please go watch it (: damn nice. action packed and romance-great combination. uh huhs.
after which, he drove me home and i dozed off in his car. awkward.. and i reached home, bathed, and voila, i'm here to do my assignments. due on monday! and tomorrow not free lah please! LOL. so many things packed together. @#$%. anyways, its a fun-filled day for me, in a sense. and my darlings, no worries k? my friends were with me. LOL. *hugs* i know you all care.. awww.. LOVES.
On Thurs, it was a darn funny night. got to know more people and such. wells, the world is just so small. oh my! =.=" anyways, it was fun! hahahahas. saw a few old friends and yeahs (: caught up a little and danced and got high. LOL. and oh my, its just funny the entire night. home, washed up, zonked. as usual. ps. and i missed school on friday. right.... oh wells. that's all (: say it 'cuz you mean it. then show it, like you mean it. uhs (:
"you're easy to understand but its difficult for you to understand people." oh so true (:
`beautiful delusions_
11:15 PM
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
Greetings, my dear ones! Happy 2009! Hope all had a good time yesterday? LOL. Of course, I had my fair share of fun yesterday as well! ((:
Allow me to sum up the last day of 2008! Initially I typed a long entry, but on second thought, its better not to type so much. LOL. Dinnered at HK cafe, arcade-d, fireworks.
Here's some photos (:
The fireworks for this yr is awesome. Bro had a video and i was too lazy to capture the shots. LOL.
Some old time photos (:
Folded by Junhui baby and yes, she gave it to me. LOL. Not clear, but ok la. LOL. its nice. Thanks girl! (:
Yays, PLAY later. Oh my, what about lessons tomorrow morning? *wonders* I will try my best to wake up. I promise. LOL. Uhs, I'll be a good girl and do my tutorials, SOON. lols :P
thanks for everything.
no worries,
i can feel all that you're trying to do.
i can feel your love & efforts (:
thanks, for spending the last sec of 2008 with me!
`beautiful delusions_
1:30 PM
JOANNE __;
leo/horse `
very random and unpredictable (prolly weird) `
[loves lub] *
family `
loved ones `
everyone `
[wish] *
# family happy n peaceful n healthy (:
# everyone around me to be happy
