The Melodies.

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Thursday, October 30, 2008

29th Oct 2008
Yes, today's charmaine's 21st birthday! Finally our dear girl has the key of freedom! WOOTS. We went to celebrate her birthday at E-hub's buddy haogies. HAHAS.

Wells, Yin hui, Char and i reached damn on time but guess what?! We were the earliest! And i mean, really really the earliest. We sat down and waited awhile for the other girls but we waited and waited, only to see no one.

Finally,we decided to place our orders first as we still have lessons to rush to. We cam-whored a little whilst waiting for the food but pictures are with Yinhui so i reckon i will grab them after they're being uploaded (:

So we ate, and finally the other girls arrived and they ordered, and they ate. hahas. and soooo! After our heavy meal, its time for cake-cutting! =DD


The hard hard awesome cake.

She has alot of wishes okays. Wish and Wish.

Alright, an un-glam photos of the birthday girl. hahas. She was trying to get the candle-holder outta the cake. HOHO. What's 21st without some sabotage-ing? LOL.

After the "birthday ceremony" we rushed to school via cab. LOL. We were running late la please. Reached school, had tutorials and blah.
And so,the day ended (:

TODAY. 30th pct 2008
I feel free.

`beautiful delusions_
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008


Two Steps Behind You - Def Lepperd

a really meaningful song, for me..
till this day, i still listen to this song, and the wonderful lyrics. its all embedded within my mind, and my heart.

alright,i'm gonna do my tutorials. arghs. btw,it was a horrible day for me. LOL. too blur + too tired = cocked up + clumsy

`beautiful delusions_
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Monday, October 27, 2008


credits to Mehul

if only love is this simple, then we can do away with the boundaries. if only love is just about 2 parties being in love, then they need not bother about what other think. if only love is this simple and strong, both parties need not be wary of people, and always trying hard to paint a perfect picture for others to see.

if only,this is our love.
if only our love is able to embrace each other.
if only we need not hide the flaws.
if only we need not try so hard to prove that we're perfectly meant for each other.
if only we can be ourselves whilst immersing ourselves in love.
if only we need not try to show others how loving we are.
if only, this is our romance,
our kind of love.

`beautiful delusions_
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Bonjour fella mates. It's a long weekend right, so shiok! PLUS the awesome cooling weather. so nice to sleep. awww.. yet, i spent my afternoon doing my communication skills homework. also, not forgetting my other tutorials. wells, i was planning to do my MAF tutorials when i realised that i have yet to purchase the textbook. lol. it's like so freaking expensive la can. it costs about $30 EACH. bloody hell.

alright,enough of the "wet-blankets" (books). proudly presenting to you, my lovely hamster, girl girl. she's my love! <33s!!

on this cold cold afternoon,she's sleeping,so soundly.



you wouldn't bear to wake her up. such a cute little princess..
sweet dreams, my love.

25th October 2008
A nicely-spent afternoon with gwenie love and Marvin. it was an enjoyable day 'cuz it was like my first outing with marvin. actually,he's gwen's uncle but he hates it when people call him "uncle". LOL.

in any case, we spent the late afternoon hanging out together in town, eating, and chatting. it was really fun. we walked around town, and lucky us! we managed to catch some of the sales in town! HOHO. bought a few stuffs.


Halloween's this friday! hahas. nice right?! its a container for candies. yes, the orange things are the gummies! Got this from Muji.


Got this Levis tee at only $20.30! hahas. erms, its actually, kids' wear.


this purple Zara tank top at only $11.90! Isn't this a hella good buy?!


alright,i reached home around 11plus. it was a fruitful day for me. imma happy kid! hahahas.

as for Marvin, he got himself one business top from Zara, and a la-coste tee from a shop at Heerens. gwenie love? hahas. nothing. she's not into shopping, as much as her uncle and me though.

a short video of girl girl ((:

`beautiful delusions_
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Saturday, October 25, 2008


got this amazing photo from manfrommanila

i'm not any fantastic girl who looks gorgeous and has a fabulous figure. i'm just me. i'm not bulletproof 'cuz all i am, is nothing but just an ordinary girl. trapping myself is not my forte and it will never be. neither will i allow it to happen. it takes time for one to open up and it will simply take seconds to close yourself up like a clam.

oh wells,random. i'm feeling 'float-ish' and i'm coming down with a flu. and so, i've no idea what i'm really typing. its just bits here and there though i tried to link them up in proper sentences, for clearer picture. oh wells..... btw, the photo was really nice so i thought i will share it with my readers (:

love is like a sparkle.
the beautiful moments die out, pretty fast.

`beautiful delusions_
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Friday, October 17, 2008

15th oct 2008
okays, just a short entry. went to hospital around 5plus am. reason? severe acute pain on my left abdomen. the pain was so unbearable that i had to use my hp to call my dad's hp, whereby we're both in the same house. lols. the pain tortured me for about an hour or so. dad was soo frightened by the coldness of my body temperature and by my constant shaking of my body muscles. i was shaking, really badly. took pandadol but it didnt work. so dad called for ambulance =.="

on the way to the hospital, i was asked to take some blood pressure test, as well as sugar level test. i was still shaking really badly. the paramedics were really nice to turn the aircon away from me, gave me extra blankets, and they covered me well (: on the way to hospital, i was still drowsy 'cuz i woken up by the sharp pain. thoughts like "what happened?" , "where are they sending me to?", "will i be given a jab?" etc, went through my head whilst we were on our way to the hospital.

reached there and i was still really drowsy. i was being examined, questioned, wheeled here and there for tests, and more tests. i was given a jab, and i'm seriously afraid of jabs! anyways, i was fine, and was suspected with some sorta stomach flu. tah dah, home sweet homed around 8plus am. took the medicine prescribed, and to lala-land,i go.







14th oct 2008
dad prepared this for me for my lunch. let me tell you the taste: deliciously awesome ((:

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Thursday, October 16, 2008

Oh-la my readers. i will update again when i'm better. it was a looonnnggg & tiring morning, being wheeled here n there for tests, and more tests. meanwhile,i'm so gonna rest. n so, adios (:


btw, its just a fun webbie i chanced upon. its fun especially when you believe in astrology (:

`beautiful delusions_
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

alright,here goes nothing. first and foremost, i think its time i put a stop to suppressing my emotions in my little world, where things are going in circles.

things aren't going really well for us lately, and you know. it all started 'cuz i didnt want you to feel bad about yourself, and 'cuz i wanna protect your little dainty heart. to me, love isn't just about 'love'. it's about commitments, about giving and taking, about caring, about assurance, and about happiness. i forgot one simple thing-respect. yes, i forgot how to explain to you about my limits and patience. i forgot how to be myself and i just kept trying to be your ideal gf.and thus, things went haywire, today.

as much as how despair i'm feeling now, i know you're feeling the same and perhaps, worse. i dont know how i should go on from here 'cuz you didnt want me to. btw, blogging out my problems is not an act to announce to the world about you. neither did i say you're rotten or what so ever.

crestfallen. perplexed. marionette. susceptible. desolated.
summary: indescribable, whirling emotions.

`beautiful delusions_
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Monday, October 13, 2008

12th oct 2008
today's house warming was alright. fun. played games, got to know my ex-seniors, get to eat. practically and basically,fun. i shall update about the day's event in details if i have the time.


today.13th oct 2008
went to CGH (Changi general hospital) for consultation for my wisdom teeth. am i really that hella smart or what? 4 at a shot. it's freaking cool, till you read the later part of my post.




finally,it's my turn.


had a x-ray which i have no idea how many brain cells was killed in the process. damn. i had another x-ray earlier on which was last month. now this. i really have no idea if my brain cells are "powerful" enough to replenish themselves.

after the x-ray, i waited for about 15mins before my number was flashed on the LCD screen. i went into the room and there, the time has come. the doctor explained my report to me,and highlighted on the risks, and the reasons why i should remove all 4 of my wisdom teeth. of course, he did gave me a choice. one, i remove 2 of my wisdom teeth (left or right side which includes both top and bottom) or two, i remove all 4 at a shot. of course, if i choose the later, i'll be be given shots,and tah dah,i'll be sleeping. i dont know how. i do not wish to drag 'cuz its better to suffer one shot, and MC for a week plus and i can get back to school for lessons. i do not wish to fail anything this semester. i need to pull back my GPA after i flunk one subject last year. its enough to pull my GPA down.

this issue has been bothering me since the moment i stepped outta the hospital. love ones are advising me to go the 2 by 2 option. i have no clue at all as to which to choose. i'm fucking scared of the pain and blood. my blood will rush at the thought of these and my body will turn cold (like now). wells.. i've to make up my mind by tonight so i can call up the dentist tomorrow..

lots of issues are running across my mind now. yet, i have no idea as to how to express them all out. whilst typing, my mind is totally blank. prolly i will type in another post,later..

asceticism.

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Friday, October 10, 2008

oh-la my dear folks! it's been a frigging hot day isn't it? walaos, stepping outta my house, is akin to taking out an ice cream from the fridge and putting it into the oven. get it? means i can MELT under the scorching sun la.

anyway, today is just like any other day. i spent the afternoon with my hubby. yes, we had a proper and filling lunch, followed by gaming at the arcade! it was a fruitful afternoon as...i've been playing ds with my hubby and have been receiving gifts from hubby's virtual pet,as gifts to my virtual hamster.

say, holidays are ending soon and at times, i do feel like we're wasting our holidays away hor? we didnt go out to work for money, and instead we were like partying and slacking throughout our hols. say, are we FILTY RICH OR WHAT?! hahas. just joking! wells, it was 'cuz hubby and i did save our allowance bit by bit when we were schooling. so even during holidays, we could still afford to have good meals once in awhile (if you consider once a week is a long time. 'cuz to me, its FREAKING LONG).

oh wells, money has been an issue in our lovely homeland. yes, prices are increasing and things are getting more expensive. due to the inflation, my hubby and i had to settle for food court most of the times instead of our usual affordable meals at restaurants. this is like killing me. really!

and you know, i kinda envy people who dont have to study/work and they can have money! its like heaven is showering them with money seh. okays, to some people, they might presume these people as the "loafers." they spend other people's money and they do nothing, except to live off people. again, they aren't consider loafers though. think hard. we need people to contribute to the society in a way that increases the "cycle of money." i'm sorry i do not know the correct term for that. allow me to explain. my definition of "cycle of money" refers to the number of the times the same amount of money is handled through different people. for example, i spent $10 at a cafe. the same $10 is then banked into the bank by the cafe at the end of the day. the following day, the same $10 will be withdraw and used by people. thus, the cycle goes round and round. the more times, the better. dont start scolding me stupid 'cuz it does help the economy ok! think hard and you'll get my point.

and wells, i cant help but to think that if you are slogging your youth away, trying to earn money, but didnt have much time to spend it, when are you gonna spend your money? yes, i strongly agree that savings are really important but at times, as human beings, you ought to pamper yourself once in a while. i mean, appropriate spending/pampering is good. dont tell me when you're dying then you're gonna enjoy life? hell no man. you're gonna regret even after you're buried ten feet down. you'll think that "hey man, shit. i didnt buy this, i didnt enjoy that, i didnt eat this, i didnt party enough." its way too late man. you gotta wait till the chinese lunar 7th month come. then, it'll never be enough too.

after so long, my main point is, don't look down on other people who doesnt have a stable job or have a good education background. for all you know, they may have hidden talents which are yet to be discovered (charisma is also considered as talent,in my humble opinion). dont be a noob and start condemning people alright? 'cuz it will make you seem so small and petty. and yes, they could be gems buried deep down in the earth. and "loafers" , dont feel bad. do what you think is suitable for you.if you have yet to discover your interest, dont lose heart. continue searching for your "light."

enough of my lengthy entry. so not use to it. especially there're not many photos up here. and ya! i cant stand people who draw their eyeliners like amy winehouse's. dont be a copycat alright? she has the jazzy and sexy voice. unless you can be as popular and wasted as her, please do not try and follow her style. thank you.
she's one hella-hot diva (:

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Thursday, October 9, 2008

8th oct 2008

Bonjour! (: i'm back to update again. wells, there's nothing going on today except that i met my hubby at my house here to play DS. lols! imagine that?! 2 hours of travelling to my place, played DS with me for 2 hours, then 2 hours of travelling back home. come on man, it's darn freaking sweet. thank you hubby! isn't that sweet?! i mean, who on earth will do that man?! even the icy-cold ice berg will melt upon hearing such heartwarming thing that my hubby has done for me.


did i mention that i dislike being distracted when playing games? LOL.


ok, dont say that i'm a fake 'cuz i only post nice nice photos of myself most of the times. yes, i'm wearing spectacles, with un-comb hair, and a smirk. hehs.

Apparently, my hubby went home after a short while of only 2hours (or even shorter). of course, i was at home waiting for my hubby to reach home safely and while waiting, i was playing my ds luhs. poor thing. sorry to make you travel so much honey. <33s!

TODAY. 9th oct 2008
i head out quite early in the afternoon. wow. rare. instead of meeting my hubby today, i met up with my another aunt. yes yes. shopping and eating. i will let the photos do the talking (:


tah dah! The Coffee Club again, for dinner.


there, my another aunt who is from my father's side (: hee.


Banana butterscotch latte for my aunt.


green apple and mojito mint soda for me!


smoked salmon linguine for me.

sincere apologies for not uploading my mom's and aunt's food 'cuz i was busy eating. yes yes, i'm guilty of that la. anyways, aunt had something something lobster pasta and mom had chicken bites! (:

the dinner was enjoyable as we chatted quite alot of stuffs. from my studies, to family, to individuals of our family (both my mom and aunt agree that i'm really spoilt. like,really), and of course, marriage. wells.....

in any case, it was really fun chatting with my aunt together with mummy (: not long after our filling meal, we decided to call for the bill and leave. heh hehs. Coffee Club gave us one 1 to 1 voucher and aunt gave it to me. heh hehs.good hor?!


wells, in any case, we went to shop at Crabtree and Evenlyn's. bought several stuffs! heh hehs!





aunt paid for all those. hehs. nice aunt. thank you aunt ros! =D and she even got our family cookies and candies from Mark's and Spencer's (:


alright,that's all for today. shall update again soon. oh, i watched the news tonight and yes, Singapore is facing an inflation which will continue till 2009. however, the inflation in 2009 will be more serious as compared to the one we're facing now. so people, SAVE! really,try not to spend too much on unnecessary stuffs. save whilst you can,earn whilst you can.

note: okays, i may not be the right person to say this but i'm gonna change my lifestyle as from today! i'm gonna start saving and not be a spoilt princess aka a spendthrift. yes yes. let's be thrifty and count our cents well (:

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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

finally, a post of today! Basically i stayed home on monday as well due to unforeseen circumstances-my dad falling sick. so i stayed home all day and i played ds the entire day. hehs. HOWEVER, i did pack my room and its so much neater now (on one side). better than none luhs. in any case, i had this post dedicated to 2 people. how nice right?! hella no, read on. thank you (:


The Best is yet to Come - At-17


to dodo:
first and foremost, i do not know you personally and so, i do not hold any grudges against you. yet, the things i've read and heard about you are like worse than horrible-atrocious.

i mean, on one hand, you were telling everyone how much you hated this people and you even show acrimony in your blog entries about these people. yet, on the other hand you were trying so much to look like them. whatever they buy, whatever beauty products they used, you followed suit (big hint to dodo's identity). my goodness!

i mean, dont you have your own sense of style? why bother following your "enemies" foot steps? arent you giving them a sense of satisfaction? despite your hatred/dislikes towards them, you followed their sense of fashion. what does this prove? it simply means that you dislike them 'cuz they're better looking or they have better fashion sense. thus, you're jealous! that explains your sarcastic remarks in your blog entries and all ( i guessed i must have exposed your tricks at this point of time).

really, no point being a hypocrite and you know, mentioned how much you think they're low-class people, no life people, etc when you're actually following their footsteps! ahh wells, like i said, i do not hold any grudges against you. these are my personal comments which does not harbour any ill intentions (i'm unlike you).


moving on, to personnel number 2-elly :
wells, like the previous being mentioned, i do not know you personally as well. however, i do have lots of personal opinions and comments about you (:
firstly, as a lady, i can totally understand your emotions and thoughts all these while. in fact, i do find you lamentable. loving someone but that person is and was not yours is indeed so difficult to let go. especially if its someone whom you loved so deeply. i wont deny that love can caused someone to be rather insensible, in a way that you allowed your heart to rule over everything and that includes your senses, and your rationals.

i do feel sorry for you 'cuz i know how miserable and heart breaking it can be for you to bear all the emotional hurt that was caused. yet, must you allow misery to eat into you each passing day? no. you do have the rights to let go slowly and move on with your life. why allow yourself to be so miserable because of someone who doesn't reciprocate your love and doesnt even show the least appreciation of your existence?

as a lady/woman/girl, you gotta love yourself more than anything else. this way, people will then cherish you. of course, i'm talking about the boy-girl kinda love and not parental love. yes, loving someone can mean loving the person wholeheartedly without expecting something in return. miss, i would like to ask you, is it really worth it? over someone who doesnt even love you at all, not even the slightest bit.

the person is not even yours to begin with. why bother holding on to something/someone who doesnt even belong to you right from the start? you, yourself know that there will never be a future. so why bother holding on? letting go is definitely a better choice. you'll free yourself from unnecessary emotional breakdowns and miseries.

secondly, i'm urging you to let go is 'cuz you're my rival in love. yes, and of course, i would wanna protect my relationship and myself! i mean no malice in this post of mine. i have no wish to hurt you further after you're being rejected flat and all.

yes, i do pity you and feel sorry for you to the extend that i might even wanna comfort you and encourage you to let go, and start life afresh. but please understand from my point of view that all i want is a happy relationship with no third parties trying to break us up. and yes, i do feel threatened by your reappearance though no, my relationship ain't going haywire. neither is it 'cuz that i have no faith in my other half. i just feel there's a need for me to voice out my stand and make it clear to you. no matter what it is, i certainly hope you'll find the right person in your life. like i mentioned before, who doesnt want to be loved?

with this, i end my entry of today. finally, i managed to say out my points.


names have been changed to protect the identity of the beings.

`beautiful delusions_
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5th oct 2008


Ai Yao Tan Dang Dang - Tu Zi


Today is stay home day. was supposed to meet babi for dinner but tonight is the finals of Super band! so we both agreed to stay home today and stay tune to super band!

the competition was so so tensed as the selected bands were good! they all have their strong points as well! i like the unplugged theme! hees. they all tried their best and i believe they're winners in their supports' eyes. i admire the bands up there as they do display different levels of professionalism. which is amazing! they worked hard from the beginning till now. *applauds*

wells, as expected, Tu-zi aka rabbit got it and they won the championship! say, i'm one of their supporters as i really like the way they play their music. however, i must admit that their vocals are not very nice. in fact, i do feel turned off by their out of tune singing at times. =.="


however, i believe they do have the potential to train their vocals and of course, bring their level of playing to perfectionism.


over all, tu-zi jia you! i believe you guys will make it big one day ((:

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3rd Oct 2008

It was like darn tiring today. Had to go all the way to Sim Lim Square to change the flash card. Yes, it had some problems. After changing the card, we headed to Sunshine plaza for wanton mee! nice nice. Hanged around, and home! =D Played ds the night, so i didnt have spare time to online to blog. *ahems*


4th Oct 2009

I woke up at hella 7am. why? my very nice and sweet cousin bombed my phone with 3 smses early in the morning. of course, the messages aint very nice and that sparked off the tension. naturally, i quarrelled with her and the both of us refuses to give in till later..

wells, and so, i spent my Saturday with my cousin and my aunt. yes, it was to celebrate aunt Lisa's birthday. of course, i got her her favourite top shop's gift card. she can shop and top up as and when she likes (: we went to bugis's top one and rock the building till 6pm. hehs. it was an enjoyable afternoon, singing and jumping on sofas. of course, it was only my cousin and i doing it. my aunt was busy laughing and singing. hahas. yes yes, kids (:

after the 'high' session, we decided to go the 7th storey hotel for steamboat session! (:
the pricing goes by the sets you order and not per head.
the trendy mama! (yes,she has 2 kids, and they are the prince and princess whom i loved so much!) the birthday woman. hoho.

un-glam. my cousin (: the one who drove me to my grave early in the morning :P

after dinner, had a long chat. we decided to go to TCC for more chats. chatted till late night. after which, my aunt sent us home. reached home around 12plus. woots. fun fun outing (:

ps. i didnt go out with my hubby but i still got a kiss! yes, from my aunt. HOHO. she was really thankful that we celebrated her birthday with her. hehs.

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Thursday, October 2, 2008

Thank You - Dido
Hellos hellos. photos from 1st of Oct'08 is up up! (: hehs. To start off the day, i took photos of myself before i leave my house. HEH HEHS. You may say i'm pretty self-obsessed but i'm not a narcissist. I do not have abnormal love or admiration for myself okays.

18,but still acting cute. HOHO.

who says i dont wear skirts?!

After a little of photo taking session, i head out and met gwennie ai ai. =DD We had our brunch at tamp's KFC. i wouldn't say its horrible, but it wasn't up to the 'old standard' of KFC. Next, we travelled all the way to bugis via bus. Main aim: collect the ds lite! off we go!! ((:


some photo-taking session on the bus. as usual! =D

We walked to IOI plaza and to our horror and dismay, that shop has shifted to far east plaza ( according to the security guard). We tried to take a bus but it was damn long and so, we took a cab (: On the way, the taxi uncle had a long chat with us, flattering us with his honeyed-words. After that 'bees-loving' ride, we finally reached our destination-Far East Plaza. Very good ehs. We walked up and down the plaza and we did not manage to find that shop!

Being a little smart, we decided to go to the internet cafe at Far East Plaza and ask the guy to help us check out the shop's details online (yes,the shop DOES have a website). It turned out to be at Far East Shopping Centre. That's where ai ai and I suspected it to be right from the start! If it wasn't for the security guard, we'd be at Far East Shopping Centre looong ago! Okay, it was partially our fault as well for not checking the address online before we go to the shop. tsk.


I took this outside a toilet near IOI Plaza. Trust me when i say never judge a book by its cover. Why? Outside the toilet, it looks so darn posh, but inside, its just like any other hawker centre's public toilet.

After we've gotten the ds plus skin, everything, we headed to Lucky Plaza to purchase some flash card. And KNS! The people there were like trying to extort money from us! The prices that they quoted were measured by hundreds and hundreds. Whereby we ended up getting 2 cards at $120 ONLY, from Sim Lim Square. SEE! Seriously, i have no idea why they quoted such high prices. Are they like some kind of syndicate or what?! However, thank goodness, we ain't stupid (:

Conclusion: we travelled to IOI Plaza, then to Far East Plaza, followed by Far East Shopping mall, then to Lucky plaza. Finally, back to bugis area-Sim Lim Square. Despite the hectic and Wells, we decided to have early dinner.



Our DS Lite. FINALLY!


how sweetly i smile after getting my ds. HOHO


no money, no honey.
no money,no ds.
no money, no me! (i'm just joking!)


the place we decided to settle at, was Breko Cafe!


check out the settings, nice nice. PLUS, they do have in-house alcohols.


whilst waiting for our food, it calls for some photo session!

i'm sorry, but i aint any appetizer. so? BEAR WITH IT.


Sea food pasta! =D


Sea food baked rice!


coke float and sprite float!

Trust me, the seafood that they used were awesomely fresh! And and and! The pasta/baked rice were superbly delicious. REALLY! Should try it out some day if you hadn't! (:



Together, the random-ness (:

After our heavenly meal, we decided to leave the place. On our way, we saw jiejie and jo! WOW. so we decided to hang out together! =DD Went shopping and had our supper together as well!

After supper, we decided to wrap up the day. Home sweet home. It was an enjoyable day! ((:

`beautiful delusions_
11:01 AM



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