Saturday, November 7, 2009
Its just another typical Saturday afternoon. Everyone was at home, busy with their stuffs. The mum was busy with her house chores, the dad was busy tightening the some pump in the toilet, and of course, I was busy reading a book, relaxing to some music. I guess nothing can be more pleasant than a stay-home afternoon, spending some time with family, and yourself.
Whilst the music was airing through the radio, thoughts were filling my little brain. Its been a while since i last spend sometime with myself. I like the kind of serenity, and yeahs, the kind of feeling that shouts: Hey, I'm not rushing for time. I'm just enjoying myself, and I don't give a damn what time is it, 'cuz this afternoon is mine. And for once, I didn't have to bother how fast or how slow the time is flying or crawling. This is BLISS.
Talking about time, I'm gonna digress a little to talk about my future. YES, MY FUTURE. You see, currently I'm having my attachment in The House, and everyone's been asking me: "So what do you intend to do after you graduate from poly? It's fast, isn't it? You're going to finish your attachment here, and back to school, then graduate. So do you have any plans?" This is the typical kind of questions I get recently.
Seriously, I've no idea where I'm heading to after graduation. I've thought of studying (pte) for a degree, but I have no interest in studying (but the practical side of life urge me to study-for the degree, for a better job). Another part of me prefers to work freelance or something. So you see, I'm lost about my future, and I'm like "omg, so what am I gonna do about it?!" In a way, I'm pretty much afraid of the future =\ Some said "when you've reached the end of the jetty, you'll know" Some chinese phrase la.
Uh wells, I'm not sure lehs. How? =S Tsk, this "future planning" thing is getting on my nerves. RAHS. Again, life is too short for you to plan anything far, isn't it? =D
`beautiful delusions_
3:31 PM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
From time to time, things change. From those changes, people learnt-be it the good way, or the bad way, but nobody can ever escape from changes. Its just like metamorphosis-whereby changes take place..It seems tougher with whatever changes that comes our way. Its just like promises are never fulfil, whereby words and promises are used to make another happy. Can those meaningless alphabets make one happy...? Or is it that humans are greedier, apart from those alphabets that form words, they want something more to prove everything...? Is it really the case, or is it always me? I was taught to feel, than to just listen unknowingly. I guess, its just me-unable to accept changes, unable to accept reality, unable to accept whatever things that're thrown at me-forcing me to digest every single bit.Work is NEVER fun. Its more of like those "political-read-in between-the-lines kind of environment." TSK. *ahems* HOWEVER, the people there are nice. *AHEMS* Okay, discussion close-there isn't any in the first place.I have a feeling-I've fallen, way too fast, way too deep.
`beautiful delusions_
2:16 PM
Friday, October 23, 2009
Torn - LetoyaMy very secret moment.
`beautiful delusions_
11:00 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I view love as something too simple. Weekends was great-great people, great Indian food, great shoots, great dinners/lunches, great sleep, great chat with mom, and I think I feel great.Your heart ached 'cuz of my tears. Yet another heart ached 'cuz of my tears shed for you.
`beautiful delusions_
3:57 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Drown & die, bitch.
maybe someday you'll give up,eventually.
maybe someday I'll give up, eventually. Me is tired, work and work. TSK. I need to nua-my favourite-st hobby.
`beautiful delusions_
10:45 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
It's ok, I'm ok.
Or at least allow me to convince myself that things are really ok,
PART-aye-d the weekends. SO OMG. I need a good rest (:
`beautiful delusions_
10:23 PM
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Food poisoning.Yes, this is bad, been vomiting the whole of yesterday, and I took half day off. Damn, my Friday is ruin, and I can't meet bro yesterday. I'm sorry bro, for not being to meet you, AGAIN. I promise to meet you up! I'm also sorry sis, for not being able to attend your BIG BASH (21st). I promise to meet you up for a nice dinner (: Sorry!Well, I'm gonna nap a little before eating again. I'm so hungry. HEH.I'm sorry for being so weak,I'm sorry for not being able to adapt to changes..For some reasons,I love to dream.Dreams are a form of escape from reality.Dreams are a form of goals in reality.Dreams are part of a hallucination you created,in reality.And you're my dream.
`beautiful delusions_
1:55 PM
